We had just enjoyed a soak in the hot pools at Lava Hot Springs, and my elderly mom was feeling a bit dizzy. I asked if she would like me to help. I confidently placed one hand on her back and one on her shoulder, offering support as I assisted her in getting grounded and balanced so the dizziness would dissipate. 

I could feel the disapproval of my sister, who was standing behind me, rolling her eyes at me (an act of contempt) as my daughters watched her.

Although my mom started to feel better, I was feeling like a failure because of what mom told me after my sister walked out. “Your sister,” (I have three and am choosing not to use her name), “says that what you do doesn’t work.”

Ouch. That hurt. 

I could feel the doubt in mom’s voice, even though I had successfully helped with her health issues many times before and she recognized the value of the work and how much better she always felt afterwards.

Immediately, the little negative voice in my head took over, and I succumbed to the intrusive thoughts… the ones that were telling me… 

You are a failure… what you do doesn’t work… You aren’t appreciated—you shouldn’t have offered… Your mom believes your sister, there is no way what you just did is going to help her.

The truth is that everyone feels like a failure sometimes and even though you may feel like a failure, that doesn’t mean it is true—negative, intrusive thoughts should not be believed!

Feeling like a failure can come from past traumas, carrying too many burdens as a child, an unsupportive family who made you feel like you can’t do anything right, or from mistakes you have made. 

It is important to understand that mistakes are just vehicles that help you learn, grow and stretch so you can become better and better.

When you are feeling like a failure, get in touch with what you are feeling and think about what you could have done in the moment. 

For example, I wish I would have replied to my mom, “It’s really sad my sister feels that way. I hope she gets over it soon, I know if she was open to it, this work could be a great benefit for her.”

This would have quickly cleared the energy and would have stopped the invasive thoughts in their tracks.

Spend some time journaling. Write down your thoughts and examine the truth of each one. Ask yourself: Is it possible I am being over critical of myself? Am I allowing invasive and untrue thoughts to take over my feelings?

Be honest and keep and open heart and mind. Pray that you will be able to recognize God’s truth. He will help you through it.

And remember… those negative, intrusive thoughts should not be believed!

Just throw them out with the trash! See the dose of enlightenment below to release feeling like a failure.

With love, 


Jeri

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: feeling like a failure

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how feeling like a failure applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 56 + 944 = E

Say it out loud with intent: "fifty-six plus nine-forty-four equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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