My cat woke me at 4:39am with a gentle meow, while her little paws walked all over my legs and feet. Her claws penetrated my blankets just enough to hurt a little.

But I was startled to realize the excruciating pain stabbing into the right side of my chest—just off the sternum.

It felt like my right connecting ribs had been crushed, sawed, and cut away from my sternum.

My sweet kitty had realized something was wrong and felt the need to bring me out of my slumber.

I rolled onto my back, to prevent more crushing pain to my chest, and she laid right next to me for a few painful hours (which is not her typical behavior), while I alternated trying to help myself and trying to fall back to sleep.

Thankfully, I knew it wasn’t a heart attack. I wondered if my side-sleeping had somehow popped a rib out of place, but the spinal alignment didn’t help much. In fact, everything I knew to try that always works for me wasn’t working. 

Thinking back to the previous day, I had prayed for some specific healing which included healing from past heartbreak… I can’t even tell you how many times my heart has been broken due to betrayal: friendships, dating relationships, a marriage relationship, family members, etc.

I feel like my prayer from the day before was being answered… just not in the way I thought. It was like all the heartbreak from the past had been compounded into one intensely agonizing heartbreak, so I could finally let it go. 

I thought I had already done the work to heal every heartbreak… but clearly I hadn’t finished!

I think that, sometimes, when things have healed to the point of being bearable—the point where we feel like we are functioning again—we mistake that for healing and don’t complete the process. This experience taught me just how many layers of heartbreak had not been entirely healed. Ouch!

It made me wonder how many of us are carrying “healed-enough” pain into a new season, not realizing there’s still more our hearts are ready to release.

It took some work and lots of prayer, plus some Heavenly counsel that I needed to be able to fully heal.

That counsel was to fill my heart with the words of God and His prophets—more than I already was—and to allow Jesus to take all of the pain away.

On New Year’s Day, this feels especially important.

A new year invites us to lay down what we no longer want to carry and let Jesus take it from here.

If you have more layers from old or new heartbreaks that need healing, see the dose of enlightenment below.

I would encourage you to also fill your hearts with God’s words and let Jesus take your pain away. It works. I am living proof of that.

Much love from Jac

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: heartbreak

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how heartbreak applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 58 + 942 = E

Say it out loud with intent: “fifty-eight plus nine-forty-two equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

https://intrinsicallyawaken.com

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