I opened the door to my husband’s office, and said, “I really could use some help with the yard work.”

I was upset that he wasn’t contributing and wanted him to do something—anything! I came across as demanding.

He snapped at me, “I’m busy. I don’t have time for that.” 

I felt that I had been carrying the bulk of our home and yard responsibilities—trying to lift the load off of him because of his poor health.

When I would do things for him—like clean his office and organize the garage, he would undo it in two or three days. It seemed he was comfortable in chaos.

When I would offer to help him, he would make it clear that he didn’t need my help.

At the time, I didn’t realize that he was heavily involved in a serious addiction (which he has, thankfully, overcome). Sadly, he was unable to give or receive support of any kind.

That was a very difficult time in our marriage because there was no give and take.

It took me a long time to understand that his unavailability wasn’t about me—it was about what had taken over his ability to be present.

When you are dealing with addiction of any kind, you are giving up a part of your power to choose, since you allow the addiction to control you. 

There are so many types of addictions—some, not so serious, like food cravings, gaming, or scrolling on Facebook. Other addictions are extremely serious, and include; alcohol, drug abuse, or sexual addictions. 

No matter what you are addicted to, there is always a consequence that typically comes in the form of strained relationships with your family, health, and finances.

All too often you will find yourself withdrawing from things and people that are most important in order to feed your addiction. I have found that to be true, even with my chocolate addiction.

Too much… and I turn into an ugly, mean, grumpy monster, which definitely hurts my family relationships and the relationship I have with my health.

If you have noticed that you are having a difficult time in giving and receiving support to and from your family and friends, check in with yourself and see where you have been focusing your time.

Is there an addiction you are dealing with that needs to healed?

Healing addictions will help you be available in a loving and healthy way to those who matter most.

That being said, always remember that YOU matter. YOU are needed and YOU are loved. Do it for YOU.

See the Dose of Enlightenment below to help you heal what’s blocking your ability to give and receive love and support.

With love,

Jeri

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: unable to give and receive support

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how unable to give and receive support applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 67 + 933 = E

Say it out loud with intent: "sixty-seven plus nine-thirty-three equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

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