My husband and I sat next to each other, across the desk from our local faith leader, Bishop Little (name has been changed). He asked us to meet with him because he had some questions about muscle response testing, which is used by chiropractors and others who practice natural healing modalities.

He didn’t like our answers. He didn’t like that we both knew how or that we actively used it. He became threatening. He was going to talk to our Stake President (who is over the bishops in the area) and have Charlie released from his church calling as counselor in a bishopric young single adult ward.

Even worse, he was going to talk to church authorities in Salt Lake and we would lose our membership—something very dear to us.

That is one of the only times I can remember being truly afraid of someone in authority over me… except my dad, when he was mad.

Bishop Little made up his mind that we were involved in something evil and there wasn’t anything we could say or do to change his mind.

It was unrighteous dominion at its finest, which is the act of unjustly exercising control over others.

Anytime anyone in a position of authority lets that power go to their head—whether it is your boss, medical doctor, a law enforcement officer, faith leader, teacher, parent or spouse—and tries to exercise that type of control, it can be frightening.

There are so many really great people in positions of authority and leadership—but one bad apple can spoil the whole bunch in your mind. Especially when they use fear, intimidation, shame and/or anger.

It doesn’t matter what you say in your defense… they won’t be able to hear you because their mind is already made up. If you have been treated unjustly, it can lead to feelings of distrust and discomfort when you are around the good ones.

It is important to work through the pain caused by the situation. Here are a few helpful tips:

• Scribble. Get a pen and paper and scribble until there are no more scribbles left in you. I like to keep a sharpened supply of colored pencils… use one until it needs to be sharpened—then set it aside and use a different color. Sometimes I have felt so angry that the sharp lead has torn through the paper. It feels good.

• Write the jer—I mean person—a letter. Put all your feelings down on paper… all of the anger, shame, fear and feelings of intimidation. If you need to use naughty 4 letter words… just do it. Tell him/her off. Don’t leave anything unsaid—get it all out. Make it at least 3 pages long and… this part is IMPORTANT… close your letter in gratitude. Do not send it. Do not correct it. Do not read over what you wrote.  Do not save it.

Simply destroy it when you are done… tear it to shreds… burn it… or delete it.

• Pretend the person is sitting across from you. Have a little conversation with him/her in your mind. Tell them exactly what you think of them. It’s okay to be brutal. When you are done... this part is also IMPORTANT in order for you to let go of the pain… genuinely thank them for meeting with you and for letting you share your feelings.

• If, and only if, you feel like it is a good idea... meet with him/her in person. I did all of the above things and then felt like I should meet with Bishop Little. It was a process of about 2½ months before I got to that point. Because I prayed so hard, during our meeting, I felt inspired with the things I should say to him. When I left, he was in tears and I was able to forgive him.

• Spend time using doses of enlightenment. There is just something about those doses that brings more strength and courage so you can face your bully.

It is critical to understand that people who abuse their position of authority are just people… imperfect people with a human condition.

Too many times we expect them to be perfect because of their position. It is unfair to place the expectation of perfection on anyone. It is too big of a burden for anyone to carry—and in the long run, it not only hurts them… it hurts you.

If you have done the work and are ready to set yourself free from the fear… go ahead and say the dose of enlightenment below.

With love,

Jeri

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: fear toward authority figure

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how fear toward authority figure applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 98 + 902 = E

Say it out loud with intent: "ninety-eight plus nine-zero-two equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

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