I’d already been on five dates with this guy, yet he chose to sit all the way on the opposite end of the couch.

My roommates made fun of me, but I didn’t see anything wrong with him sitting over there.

They thought he was afraid of me, and wondered what I had done to him! I hadn’t done anything. Things were very peaceable between us.

Looking back, I do think he was scared of me on some level. In fact, all of they guys who liked me didn’t really dare touch me… I was used to them keeping some physical distance and it was fine by me.

My mom said that as a baby, I stiff-armed her and wouldn’t snuggle in—I was a colicky baby and struggled to feel comfortable—I just didn’t feel good.

Then as a child, my mom struggled with mental illness, so… I’m not sure I wanted hugs then either.

So… I was used to not having a lot of physical contact, unless I was wrestling around with my younger brothers. (I always joke that they never would have made it through boot camp if it hadn’t been for me lol.)

I didn’t know that I had been putting out “don’t touch me” vibes… It wasn’t deliberate. I was just used to being independent and not expressing physical affection.

It wasn’t until I went through foot zoning school 15+ years ago and learned about my MASSIVE heart walls (my instructor had never seen anything like them—and probably hasn’t to this day!) that had been protecting some very deep seated emotions from the past—even right down to the struggling infant who couldn’t be comforted.

I have done a lot of healing over the years. I love hugs now. Well… usually. Haha.

Deep seated emotions from your past can really hold you back. They cause you to put out vibes and energies that you don’t mean to broadcast out to other people.

However, once you become aware of what you’ve been holding onto, and you take steps toward healing, the energy you put out into the world softens and becomes more welcoming.

If you have deep seated emotions from your past, and you are ready to take a BIG step forward in your healing journey, take a moment to identify what those emotions are, then see the dose of enlightenment below.

Love from Jac

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: deep seated emotion from the past

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how deep seated emotion from the past applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 57 + 943 = E

Say it out loud with intent: “fifty-seven plus nine-forty-three equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

https://intrinsicallyawaken.com

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