Jac: I’ll never forget the day I was riding in the back of a car with my roommate and some new guy friends.

I was telling a story about something that had happened earlier that day, and our blind friend interrupted and wanted to know who was speaking, because “you sound like a robot.”

Everyone laughed. It kind of hurt my feelings. But it also helped wake me up.

I had experiences in childhood that caused me to choose to shut down emotionally, and therefore, had been unable to express my feelings and emotions for quite a long time. 

I’d already done some healing at the point of that experience, but it helped me realize I needed a real change in the way I expressed myself. 

Jeri: I remember how you were always guarded in the way you spoke—you didn’t feel safe to express yourself in an animated way. I am so sorry for my part in that. You were careful because you were afraid of me getting upset. I was a yeller.

Jac: You know you’ve already been forgiven for all of that. There were complex reasons beyond your control.

Actually, I was more afraid of myself getting upset in the way I had seen you get upset. I had a lot of anger inside of me, but refused to feel it. I controlled everything. Even happy emotions weren’t allowed… because when you overly control the bad emotions, the good emotions are also kept severely in check. 

Jeri: I have to say how proud I am of you, because you didn’t let this get you down. I am so grateful for our journey and how we have both been able to heal and overcome hard things through the Atonement of our Savior, Jesus Christ.

If you have been working too hard and too long to keep your emotions in check, or if you are unable to express them for other reasons, please see the dose of enlightenment below.

Keep learning and keep growing. You can do hard things.

Love from Jeri and Jac

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: unable to express feelings and emotions for a long period of time

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how unable to express feelings and emotions for a long period of time applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 57 + 943 = E

Say it out loud with intent: “fifty-seven plus nine-forty-three equals enlightenment.” 

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

https://intrinsicallyawaken.com

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