The one thing I want and long for more than anything in this world is to feel loved. People who know me would probably be surprised at that. After all, on the surface I seem outgoing, friendly, and perhaps even loveable—but inside there is a loneliness that sticks with me.

It has been there since I was a tiny child… the barely three-year old that was put outside in the dark until she could stop crying didn’t feel loved. 

I was really too little to understand and was unable to comprehend that my family did love me, even though I was being disciplined.

Soon I was trying my hardest to earn the love of my family by being ‘good’. But in my mind, I was never good enough and felt I could never earn their love because I was unlovable. I couldn’t even love myself.

Hands down, this has been the hardest part of my healing journey. It never ceases to amaze me how childhood experiences shape and mold our lives in such overwhelming ways.

The adult in me understands that love doesn’t have to be earned—it’s freely given. I also know that I am loved. It doesn’t have to be complicated… but yet, it is. 

I understand that when I truly come to love and accept myself, and gain the ability to see myself the way God sees me—love will surround me in every area of my life. I am working on it and feel like I’m making big strides.

Have you ever thought about what you want or what your heart longs for more than anything?

Take a moment to imagine what it is for you.

Get in touch with those feelings and then say the dose of enlightenment below to release that emotion so you can move forward in a more balanced way. 

With love,

Jeri

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: wanting/longing

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how wanting/longing applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 127 + 873 = E

Say it out loud with intent: "one-twenty-seven plus eight-seventy-three equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

https://intrinsicallyawaken.com

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Every decision you make brings you closer to—or farther away from—the Light. We will meet you at the Light! 
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