Things had been going so well. Until they weren’t.

I felt disconnected and had lost all of my excitement. I couldn’t understand why…

The next time we talked, he told me about his “strange flaw” … the one where he sabotages relationships for no apparent reason.

I felt my heart erect new walls. Walls against him. Walls against being hurt.

He had seemed so different from all the other guys I had previously dated… but now, here he was telling me he’d just left the back door open for when he was ready to run.

The interesting thing is…  I began to realize that I had already started to build heart walls against him—before his “flaw” announcement—for no apparent reason.

He had done nothing to violate my trust up to that point.

As I did some soul searching, I discovered that we were at a critical place in our relationship—we were at the exact point on the timeline that 90% of my previous relationships had all began to unravel.

Not one of those relationships survived.

My brain (subconsciously) knew it was time to protect my heart, and acted accordingly.

Once I identified why I had started building walls to prevent myself from being hurt, it made sense why he felt the need to open the backdoor, just in case.

My fears and walls had amplified his fears.

Heart walls will do that. Granted, sometimes they are necessary for a time… but we often leave them up far longer than needed, causing ourselves to disconnect and distance ourselves from loved ones.

And if you don’t resolve them, they may leave your most important relationships in ruins.

If you have found yourself building heart walls, and you are ready to find the courage to bring them down, see the dose of enlightenment below.

You will be amazed at how quickly you’ll be able to reconnect with loved ones and repair relationships, especially if you also practice healthy communication and vulnerability—just like I did with him. Working through that experience brought us so much closer.

Love from Jac

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: heart wall against being hurt

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how heart wall against being hurt applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 122 + 878 = E

Say it out loud with intent: “one-twenty-two plus eight-seventy-eight equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

https://intrinsicallyawaken.com

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