My palms began to sweat profusely—I could barely grip the steering wheel. My arms and hands went numb with pins and needles. My throat went completely dry and my breathing turned heavy and labored and fast. Too fast.

My chest felt oppressed and restricted. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. Perhaps because my breaths were too shallow—they couldn’t break through the walls of oppression. 

At first I didn’t understand what was happening—I just knew I didn’t like how I felt. I tried to focus on calming my breathing, but it seemed futile.

Eventually, I realized it must be a panic attack. All of that deep anxiety I had been shoving down and down and down over the past week, plus all the fear regarding the situation I was about to put myself in was finally overtaking me. I felt like I was losing control over my physical body and wondered if I should pull over.

I was on the way to meet up with my former best friend. I had been dating her brother and he told her some stories that weren’t true while we were still dating, so she decided to retaliate against me.

She did and said things that hurt me more deeply and far worse than anyone else ever had. She knew me extremely well—I had trusted her with everything—so she knew exactly how strike at me in the worst way possible.

I had done my best to forgive her, but now she wanted to talk and patch things up. Knowing things could never be the same, I agreed. I felt it would be healing for both of us to at least talk it out. 

Once I arrived at my destination, I took a few minutes to pray and breathe. Things finally calmed down, so I went inside—which wasn’t as scary as my body had tried to tell me it would be.

We talked and when I left we were on good terms, but we definitely have not kept in touch.

(I do believe all people and situations are worth forgiving. Forgiveness helps us heal and move forward. But it does not mean we have to jump back into trusting someone.)

If you’ve felt fear and anxiety surrounding people and/or a situation beginning to overtake you, there’s a dose of enlightenment below. If you’re not quite to that point yet, good! It’s better to clear it out now, so that it doesn’t build up and cause a situation of panic.

Love from Jac

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Since we promised to treat you to an extra dose of light in your inbox, we include a Dose of Enlightenment for you at the end of each newsletter. We value your agency, so it’s up to you whether or not you receive it!

This Dose of Enlightenment is a frequency equation meant to clear a hidden and trapped emotion that you’ve been holding onto. 

If today's emotion is one that we have already cleared, know that we are addressing a different layer or situation this time.

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Today’s emotion is: overtaken by fear and anxiety

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how overtaken by fear and anxiety applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 71 + 929 = E

Say it out loud with intent: “seventy-one plus nine-twenty-nine equals enlightenment.”

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

https://intrinsicallyawaken.com

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