Jac: A few days after a tragic accident someone very dear to me was involved in, I looked forward to attending my world religions class. It had always been a bright and spiritually uplifting class.

And it did not disappoint. Until about halfway through the class, when my professor started telling the story of a reckless driver who was driving too fast and not paying attention and had just struck two little girls at an intersection.

One died, the other was injured.

My professor acted like the driver didn’t even feel bad about it and said he should be punished to the full extent of the law.

Then he went on and on about why we have speed limits and laws… and how if this guy had been obeying the laws this never would have happened.

I knew exactly who he was talking about, but he had his facts all wrong.

My friend hadn’t been reckless. The investigation showed he wasn’t speeding, he wasn’t on his cell phone, he wasn’t drinking, there was no stop sign, he broke no laws… he had merely looked over for a second to check the position of the car next to him.

After speaking to witnesses, the police discovered that a van in the other lane of traffic had stopped, and the driver had waved to signal the little girls that it was safe to cross.

The way things happened, there was no way my friend could have seen those little girls coming. It was a freak accident. And my friend was absolutely heartbroken.

I was so angry at the judgements my professor was placing on my dear friend, that I couldn’t say anything. Even though I really wanted to put him in his place…

Jeri: That was such a sad and difficult time. Why was it so hard for you to speak up?

Jac: With the overwhelming anger I was feeling, I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to express myself in a healthy way… Back then, I had always related expressing anger with freaking out and I didn’t want to embarrass myself or my professor in front of the class.

I’d never really seen anger expressed in a healthy way, and I was always used to pushing down my emotions so that I wouldn’t ever be the one freaking out.

Jeri: I can certainly identify with what you were feeling. Sometimes it is hard to speak up… especially when you are angry at a respected authority figure who is using his influence to convince a classroom of students to embrace his way of thinking.

That has happened to me before and it is so uncomfortable.

Sometimes it may be a good idea to stay silent… other times, speaking up can shift perspectives and create more positive outcomes.

Jac: Exactly. I wonder how many people left class that day and went and repeated the story the way my religion professor had shared it. Had I spoken up, perhaps the entire classroom would have been reminded not to judge people harshly—especially when you don’t have the facts.

And the rumors would have stopped there. I can’t exactly fix it after all of these years, but I can clear the emotions now that caused me to stay silent then.

Jeri: That's such an important reminder. We can't go back and change the moments when we wish we had spoken up, but we can learn from them, clear what held us back, and prepare ourselves to respond differently in the future.

If you can relate, a good exercise would be to reframe the situation. Ask yourself, “How would I want to do things differently if I ever find myself in that type of uncomfortable situation again?”

Preparation brings courage.

If fear has kept you silent when you wanted to speak, take a moment to consider what held you back—and then see the dose of enlightenment below.

Love from Jeri and Jac

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💜 Today’s emotion is: want to let feelings out, but don’t dare

How does this emotion apply to you? For best results, ponder this question and identify how want to let feelings out, but don’t dare applies to you.

Dose of Enlightenment: 65 + 935 = E

Say it out loud with intent: “sixty-five plus nine-thirty-five equals enlightenment.” 

Breathe. Let it go. Feel the shift. Allow your body to be filled with light.

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The Doses of Enlightenment come from the M: Collaborations with the Divine Doctor book by Jaclyn Taylor. If you haven’t picked up a copy yet and want to learn more about how this works, you can get one here: 

https://intrinsicallyawaken.com

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